being grateful

I came here today with a million post ideas on my mind... I knew I wanted to write something, because I sorta missed yesterday, and no one will most likey be reading tomorrow, so I figured today would be the day to get it all out there, and leave that lasting impression. But then I sat down, and my mind went blank. 

Ugh...

So since I can't think of anything, let's talk about something easy... what I'm grateful for.

I am grateful for my family, of course. I am grateful that they are there to be my support system, show me that there is a light at the end of the tunnel, and accept me for everything I am. Including my flaws. My family is what keeps me going. Sure sometimes we fight, and don't talk for a couple of days, but I know in the end, they will be right there waiting for me. 

I am grateful for my son. Even though sometimes he has a tendency to piss me off, (don't all kids have that quality?), his cuddles always make up for what he has done. I am learning to accept that he is not going to listen to me a hundred percent of the time, but I am still grateful for his existence.

When I was pregnant, I was a huge pessimist. I never thought that I was worthy of having a child, even though I wanted one. You see, even though my ex and I weren't trying, we didn't use anything to prevent an unplanned pregnancy. This went on for about five years. So when I started dating my husband, I made an appointment with a fertility doctor. They told me that they couldn't run any tests until I had been trying for at least a year. I was in the dark on whether I could actually have children or not.

So when I became pregnant, three months after we married, I didn't think anything was real. AND I thought that something would go wrong. Sure I was happy about carrying a child within my womb, but there was always the feeling in the back of my mind that something was bound to go wrong. And then of course reading super sad stories on Facebook about babies with my pregnancy brain, was seriously a bad choice.

Now, I am not saying that I didn't go crazy buying baby items, because I did, but there was always a little voice in the back of my mind that something could go wrong. Which the fear became apparent at our 20 week ultrasound... when the tech looked at us with concern. My ob sent us for a 3-d ultrasound, and we found out that my little nugget was a boy. At the ob appointment about a week after, he confirmed that the little nugget was on track, but one of his kidneys was fuller than the other- hence the possible concern from the tech at the first appointment. They said that they would monitor his kidneys in each subsequent ultrasound, but there wasn't a need to worry.

Needless to say, the little nugget turned out to be fine. And I couldn't be happier.

I am grateful for my job. I won't deny that I have been looking for something full time, but I honestly can say that I love my current job. Why else would I have been there for over a year and a half now? I love that I feel like I am helping my clients and I love watching the interaction between parents and their children.

I am grateful for blogging, the community it has brought me, and the lessons that it has taught. Blogging is my release. Before I started blogging, I would keep all of my anxieties and issues locked deep inside, and then "pop" when I couldn't take it anymore. Needless to say it wasn't a good picture.

I am grateful for my Etsy Shop. I love that I am able to create beautiful wine glasses and jewelry, and people actually want to buy them! Along with blogging, it's also a release and relaxes me.

My wish for you this week is for you to have a Happy Thanksgiving, and that you tell your family and friends just how much they mean to you! 

*Linking up with Anne

Ps. My birthday is in less than a week, and I'm going to be doing a black Friday sale in the shop!

What are you grateful with this holiday?

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