In all honestly, I really thought that Saturday was going to be that day, and I was going to go through the same thing that I did when we laid my grandpa into his eternal rest eight years ago- I refused to go to the casket and see him. I was a crying mess, and everyone was telling me that I needed to go say goodbye. I had seen him the night before, and that had been enough for me- so no matter how much pleading they did, I refused to go.
Since Saturday was a no-go, I think it's going to happen when Lil Man and I visit my mom's house this coming week. And like everyday for the two weeks proceeding last Wednesday, she was there- but won't be now. I know that may sound confusing, but hopefully you get it.
For those of you who have no idea what the hell I am talking about- I lost my grandmother on Wednesday night. I blogged about it.
So in light of my mental unstableness over the past couple of days, I think I am just going to share a currently post... because I love blogging and truthfully, I'm kinda forcing myself to write this post. I know you guys would be ok with me randomly taking a couple of days off, but I think writing is my therapy. Plus writing at night is best, because Lil Man is asleep.
I would also like to take a moment and thank everyone for their beautiful comments and outpouring of support. You guys have no idea how much it really means to me. I know now why I joined this bogging community.
Anyways...
I would also like to take a moment and thank everyone for their beautiful comments and outpouring of support. You guys have no idea how much it really means to me. I know now why I joined this bogging community.
Anyways...
R e a d i n g | Almost every damn post by Don't Quote The Raven- she is just too damn funny and I love her. Btw, her words have been the only thing to make me smile the past few days.
W r i t i n g | This blog post (duh) and some random posts for the week.
L i s t e n i n g | To the shows cluttering up my DVR from the week... The Originals, Scandal, Grim, How to get away with murder...
T h i n k i n g | About Halloween costumes for me and Lil Man. I really want to dress up this year- I just don't know as what.
W i s h i n g | That Lil Man's grieving process is over... meaning that he will be ok and not break down in the very near future.
H o p i n g | To get a phone call on Monday informing us that insurance has approved the hubby's surgery and they are ready to schedule.
S m e l l i n g | The leftover Bath and Body Works Pumpkin Latte & Marshmallow lotion I put on earlier... ps- absolutely love the smell!
S m e l l i n g | The leftover Bath and Body Works Pumpkin Latte & Marshmallow lotion I put on earlier... ps- absolutely love the smell!
W e a r i n g | New fuzzy socks from Target
L o v i n g | The new crochet blanket that I picked up from my mom's today... My grandmother made it. Pictures to come soon.
W a n t i n g | The Ben & Jerry's ice cream that is currently in my freezer.
N e e d i n g | A hug.
F e e l i n g | Numb... we have already addressed this.
M i s s i n g | My grandmother....
She is going to be cremated, so that's why there isn't a gigantic hold near where I'm sitting... after the funeral we took a bunch of flowers to the gravesite- my grandpa is right next to me.
In case you missed it....
another week down
happiness is in the eye of the beholder
my worst fear
when things don't go as planned
In case you missed it....
another week down
happiness is in the eye of the beholder
my worst fear
when things don't go as planned
Sending prayers to you. I lost my grandma 2 yrs ago this August and it doesn't get any easier.
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